Smurfs, Guys And...Guys.

I've got some depressing news.

Recently I found out that they're making a live action adaptation of that good ol' cartoon, The Smurfs. When I heard that, it just ruined my day!

I can't believe they're going to redo The Smurfs! No! They have butchered so many good ol' classic cartoons with their "modern" renditions, it's just sad.

The Smurfs was...man, it was a classic! I can personally say that I occasionally enjoy watching The Smurfs.

It should be revered as sacred and remain untouchable my modern directors who will just butcher it. We should issue a restraining order! The Smurfs are untouchable!

Normally, I would be excited about hearing something like that. But I really lost my faith in live-action adaptations of cartoons after M. Night Shyamalan decided it would be a good idea to turn Avatar: The Last Airbender (which is a great show, by the way) into his hour and a half long total crap-a-thon by the name of The Last Airbender. I still haven't quite forgiven him for ruining Zuko's scar and turning Aang into Ahng. But the time for a TLA rant is not now.

Maybe some of you have heard about the Smurfs movie and are excited.

OMG! I just totally noticed that Firefox doesn't put squiggly red lines under Smurfs! That means it's an actual word! That's awesome! Hahaha!

Haha...anyway, as I was saying, maybe some of you are excited about it? I personally am rather upset that The totally adorable Smurfs has fallen prey to the modern tradition of live-action horror. It's like my worst nightmare has finally come true! I'd kind of hoped they would remain immune to it!

What's next, a sequel to The Last Airbender? Make it stop!

On a totally different note, I feel like writing about my weekend. M'kay?

Well, where to start? This weekend has been...very weird. There have been events that normally would have made it an awesome weekend, and events that would normally ruin my week. It's like they kind of canceled each other out and left me with an average weekend.

The good news:

There's this guy at my church whose name I will not divulge at the moment. But I met him a little while ago, and since then we've become tight friends. He's one of the very few people in my life who has made me feel totally comfortable and confident, like I can completely remove the mask and be me, and he's not going to care.

Well, I'm sure you can see where this is going. I've kinda sorta been developing a crush on this guy, and a few weeks ago, I told him that I like him. He took it quite well, actually. 'Twas a relief.

Last night, he told me that he likes me back! It made me quite happy!! His exact words were, "Hey...um...I kinda like you...."

I saw him at church today, and, well it was...interesting. Our relationship is certainly different now, but not in a bad way. It's like...we both like each other, and we both know it. But he's told me before that he's not ready for a relationship, so we're kinda remaining just friends...? Which is fine, because I don't feel ready to try a relationship again either.

Which brings me to the bad news:

My relationship with this guy has started bringing up some, um...some memories that I would rather forget. It's...I could probably describe it as reopened wounds. I mean...I've had one relationship with a guy before. I'd rather not go into detail at the moment, but, well, let's just say that it partially killed my faith in guys. This guy, whose name shall remain hidden...well, he kind of forgot about me. Let's just leave it at that. And, I totally trusted him.

Since then, I have mended. Not completely, but a decent amount. I've gotten to where I think I'm over it, but then something brings it up and it's like it starts all over again. I've heard that healing is a cycle; I guess now I really know what it means.

Well, anyway...I was talking to my friend in church today. He was trying to show me how to make a heart with just two fingers, instead of my whole hand. I just can't seem to get it! Gah!

Anyway, after a while I finally gave up, and he just laughed. He made half of a heart with one of his hands and held it out to me. I understood what it meant, and I completed the heart with my hand.

Of course, me being as tiny as I am, the result was a very uneven heart. He started laughing and making fun of it, which normally would have amused me.

But the thing is, that's exactly what me and the other guy used to do. We called it the "lopsided heart"; it was like our special thing. We would do it when we met, when we parted ways, and generally just whenever we felt like it. So, doing it with my friend from church...it, um...it wasn't cool.

So, the long and short of it is, right now, I'm just confused. I'm trying to be excited that my friend likes me back, but I can't think of it without thinking of my first relationship. While I totally trust my friend, I totally trusted the other guy too. I don't know what to think. I don't even have an opinion. I'm just...genuinely confused. I mean, if my friend tells me that he feels ready for a relationship, will I be ready? Will I be able to trust him? I don't know. I know I should trust him; he hasn't done a single thing for me to mistrust him. But...man, I really don't even know. I'm just so very confused...more confused than I've ever been in my life.

So, yup...that was my weekend. Very strange, it was.