Hey again!
So, I don't know how many of you read my last blog, "Smurfs, Guys And...Guys". I know Gracie read it, because she left a very heartwarming comment. :) Thanks Gracie! You totally made my day! You're awesome!
Well, I just wanted to say that I have been going through some major healing lately. It's been amazing; I want to describe it to you, but I'm not even sure where to begin.
Well, like I said in my last blog, I've been experiencing some memories of a bad experience, and it's been making me unhappy. I've kind of been trying to stifle them, and while I thought that was the way to go, I never really realized that it was wearing me down.
When it came back up, I don't know why, but I didn't try to shove it down this time. Instead, I was like "God, I'm sick of this. Show me how to forgive, and show me how to let go and move on. I can't go on like this." And immediately, I felt a response. It was like Jesus just wrapped His arms around me and said, "Start by forgiving."
So, with His wonderful help, I've been learning how to let go. And man, there are just no words to fully explain how refreshed I'm feeling. It's like all this weight on my shoulders is gone, and I can live again. I can breathe; I'm finally free.
It's funny; I didn't even realize just how much it was oppressing me. I kept all the junk bottled up, and when it came back to the surface, I thought it was a bad thing. But now I realize it had to come up to come out.
And I'm so glad I'm free now. I thank Jesus, my very best friend in the whole world, for showing me how to move on. I can finally live again.
As for the first guy, if anyone is reading this and going "OMG, that guy must be a jerk," don't. Really. He's a nice guy who just made a mistake. We all do. We still talk occasionally, and we're still friends. While we're not in a relationship anymore, I have let it go. And I'm very happy, and I hope he's happy.
Thank you to anyone who read this and cared. You're all awesome!
Goodbye for now!
Rachel
P.S. JESUS IS THE WAY!!!
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